Cavity

First seen in LAMINATOR Vol. 1

No matter how hard you try 

You are such a “nice” guy.

Kind.

Profanely neutral.

A saccharine artist 

Bloated with honey. 

You hand out sweets to all the young girls. 

My sweet lover 

of mercy --

you know no boundary 

in your sugar-coated generosity

when you invade vulnerability 

with you dehydrating pity.

You enter so sweetly,

so discreetly

carving out a cavity 

into what was once healthy.

You coat with a sticky residue 

that putrefies ---

then deserts over time.

These rotten games you play 

leave me empty 

with a horrid aftertaste.

A soft infected hole 

of bottomless decay.

It’s what you do 

my dear 

and out of a murky pain 

the truth runs clear. 

How can I remember yesterday 

as sweet satiety?

How do I think of love as lucious candy 

when today is exposed -- 

a constant ache of excess 

a cavity 

of spoiled absence.

Ami Watanabe

Ami Watanabe is a poet, blogger, and visual artist from Chicago, IL. She attended South Suburban College, Purdue University and Governor’s State University. She won the Scriblarean Best Poem Contest, and was Second Place Winner of the Sigrid Stark Undergraduate Poetry. Her poems and articles have appeared in the Spindrift, Scribblarean, the Pond, The Write City Review, volume 4, Laminator Vol 1, The Calumet Press, and the Southeast Observer. Her photography has appeared in the Chicago Star, Memory House Magazine, spring 2023 edition, and Performance Response Journal. Check her blog out at www.diamondlifeadventures.com